My little black diet book

Yeah you heard me. Today is just not my day. My mood is really crummy and I don’t want to exercise. But am I going to? Yes. Why because I have too. Am I going to pout the whole time? You better believe it. I don’t know about anyone else out there but sometimes I really don’t feel all that great about life in general. It is just a mood I wake up in when I know I have to do something I dislike. So how do you get over it. Well, I am not going to go to a therapist. So the next best thing that I have heard is drink lots of water and exercise. Get those happy hormones moving. Give yourself a pep talk and then go get some sunshine. To bad the sky is a little gray. What did I expect, it is January after all. Hopefully after I exercise I won’t have this grumpy ghost following me around all day like a shadow.

Today went by way to fast. I must admit I told myself I wouldn’t want the movie I rented until I exercised. Tonight will not be the night I reward myself with a movie. Instead of watching TV I wrote up some interview questions for work tomorrow. Why does it seem that work has a tendency to follow you home? Sometimes I think it is just me. I want things to go right even though I know that they will not be perfect. I have however found work to be a great way to re align myself with my goals. I have a team of 14 going to 16. I make sure that I have two water runs per day. That means I will get water for my phone bankers and myself at least twice a day. When we have contests instead of bringing in fatty food I am getting the more healthier options. We also talk about stress during our daily line up and ways to avoid it. A lot of it has to do with eating right and exercising.  

The fish turned out pretty good last night. It tasted a lot like tuna fish so I can’t complain to much.  Next week hopefully I will find a winner. Something that can be my alternative to chicken. What can I say, I love chicken. I could eat it 3 times a day seven days a week. I guess I am lucky in that sense. So when I reduce  eating red meat no big deal to my taste buds. My mom would never make it with out red meat at least 5 times a week. Well I am off to get a good night sleep so I can be ready to go tomorrow. Tomorrow I must exercise. I am promising myself that I will and then I can have a reward. No getting online until I exercise. There that is always a treat!

weight: 222 lbs

neck: 14 1/2 inches
Arms: 13 1/2 inches
Chest: 45 inches
Waist: 43 inches
Hips: 49 inches
Thighs: 24 1/2 inches
Calf: 15 3/4 inches

So the inches are coming off!! Woot Woot!! Lbs are coming down slowly. I am hoping it is just because I am building muscle mass.

This week I tried to get some friends to exercise with me. Yet, no one took me up on my offer. No I didn’t sit and pout about it. I just did things around the apartment. This weekend, I asked a friend to go for a walk with me and she declined. I really wanted to say, come on! It will do us both good. But she isn’t feeling well so I didn’t push the envelope. I must say, I don’t think she will walk with me next weekend either. After all, she has a million excuses. She is me from last year. I wanted to lose weight but I didn’t wanna put any effort into it. So here I am this year, starting over with a positive attitude. I just wish I had some support.
I was watching this health show on TV and this girl worked really hard and had her sister(who happened to be a personal trainer) there to support her every step of the way. I don’t need someone to hold my hand, it would just be nice not to have food that I love put in my face every time I turn around and have no one willing to exercise with me even once a week. However, I will never give up, Never surrender! On with my diet battle I go!

This weekend I was a bad, bad girl. Friday, I dropped a lbs. By today I gained it back. So next week I don’t get a treat for being good unless I eat it by myself.   I think I am going to try and organize this a little better. SO this will be where I get to rant about the past weekend. Weekends are going to be hard.  Friday I ate pizza. Started out with three slices for dinner. Then I went to a friends house and had a 2 am snack of a totino’s pizza. Not good. I stayed away from the booze. But gained a pound.  That is always so sad. I knew I would because I wanted the treat but when I look back at it from today it makes me sad that I have to work it off again. I fell of the excercise bandwagon on Wed. My legs were just to tired. However, it doesn’t make up for missing Thur and Friday. As for Saturday, well I did couch cardio.  I watched Billy boots and did his cardio video while sitting on a friends couch.  Yeah I know it doesn’t really count, but I was moving, more then I normally do. I also am drinking my daily intake of water. Yay me!!!  Woot Woot!!  This weekend, we were talking about water and my dad said ‘Who drinks water?!’  I was like me dad. No wonder I am such an unhealthy girl.  I was invited over for lunch at my parents house on Sat. They decided to go to Arby’s, one of my favorite places.  I resisted the temptation of curly fries!!!!  I got the chicken club salid instead. Now only if I had replaced the dressing it might have been a little bit healthier. Oh well, it was a salad and not a big montana, cheese sticks and curly fries. What can I say sometimes I am a bottomless pit. But not this time boys!  I resisted the urge.  Also for dinner, they tried to tempt me with bottomless pasta. I resisted the evil forces and went to Chick-a-fil and got the grilled chicken sandwich.  I even restisted those oh so tempting chicken nuggets.  I am telling you temptation everywhere. I was invited over to have breakfast at the parents house. A nice hardy Sunday meal that consisted of Fried eggs, Biscuits, hashbrowns, and spam. I had a lovely bowl of reduced sugar oatmeal and a large bottle of water. I haven’t had lunch yet, I think I will have soup and a salad.  For dinner I will be cooking that Mahi Mahi, fish of the week. I will have brown rice, and a side salad. Yum. 

My sister turned me on to Hungrygirl.com. If you haven’t been there and you are struggling like I do. They have some great tips and information.  As for me, the whole fish thing is working. I am down another pound! Yay me!  Yes I celebrate every pound because that are all a struggle for me. I can’t wait until the day I can say it is not a struggle and I have a routine that works for me. No more snapper fish. I finally rewarded myself with chicken. Next, weeks fish Mahi,Mahi. I have heard great reviews but I am a little scared now. So we will see what the weekend holds. I know it will be a challange for me. I like to go out and get a drink over the weekend. I also like to sit on my butt with good company and watch movies and play games.  SO happy Friday!

So I ate fish today. It was the same kind I had earlier this week. Red Snapper is SO off the list. I just can’t take it. It has to much of a fish taste. As for the diet. Not doing so bad. I had Oatmeal for breakfast. Didn’t get to eat again until 5:30. Yes I know that is bad of me. I did drink lots of water during the day. I had a good plan. I brought yogart for my mid morning snack, the fish and rice for lunch and carrots for my afternoon snack. Well I managed to eat the fish and rice for dinner. I also had the carrots. It helped to get my mind of the fish. Yes I poutted because I had to eat it. But I did it. I managed to stay away from the vending machine. I also didn’t eat any chocolate that people kept offering me. I just can’t help thinking these people want me to stay fat. Look at all the sweets they keep offering me. Look at all the fast food they bring in. Then I have to stand by it and it is so inviting. I mean really, it is soooooo hard to be surrounded by all this fast food. I work down town and we are right off the 16th street mall, so there is bad food every where you turn. I don’t see how healthy people do this. I mean really. They must not see food as a friend but as something just so you don’t pass out from hunger.  I had about 1 serving of rice cake thingy’s for dinner, and gave away my yogart. I did take a break from the exercise. Tomorrow I will pick it up again. My legs are sore. I hate lunges. Who made those things? Who ever did should stay far away from me. Me and my tired legs may just try to kick them in the head.  Enough of my ranting.  I am going to go lay in bed and stay away from food and exercise.  Tomorrow is a new day. Time to try again!

Fish. What can I say. Not my favorite thing in the world but I plan on eating it. After all it is good for me.  Today I had oatmeal for breakfast. A hand full of M&M’s for my morning snack. A salad for lunch. Fried chicken and mash patatoes for dinner. Ok so maybe it wasn’t the healthiest of choices, but I did watch my portion size. I had a small scoop of potatoes and a thigh. I also had lots of water and a coke.  That is it so far. I don’t think I am doing so bad. I find if I keep myself busy it is not so hard to stay away from food. So the trick is getting out there by myself and doing things even if a friend doesn’t wanna come along. I also excercised tonight. I didn’t make it through the tape but I made it half way. Pretty good if you ask me. Remember I have to ease myself into this. I am not in shape and I don’t wanna kill myself. I had a trainer once. She had me see a doctor because my heart rate was out of control. Dr said everything was fine. So why am I so out of shape?  I will never know but hopefully it won’t be for to long. I got an email from a boy I think is just soo cute. So hopefully things will work out.  Yeah I would say today is a good day.

Well I made it through 2005. Now the real work begins. I start the diet and exercise program. First I have to clean house so maybe I can find things around the house to help me exercise while I clean.  I went to the store and bought lots of fish and healthy stuff. We will see how this goes. I know that fish is suppose to be good for the body.  I think it is good for me to try new things. No regrets this year. Just try, try, and try again. I will not be defeated. Not this time. Oh no, can’t keep a superGal down! New fish, new veggies, and new fruit. Less red meat, smaller portion sizes, more energy.  — yes I have to tell myself something. So here we go, of to find some fish receipes. Wish me luck!